tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7087808.post112506603201296999..comments2023-10-31T15:03:06.239+00:00Comments on Successful F*ck Up: Secret's OutSerialangelhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04722444249525698422noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7087808.post-1125335132702844482005-08-29T18:05:00.000+01:002005-08-29T18:05:00.000+01:00Betty, sorry I haven't commented yet, my computer ...Betty, sorry I haven't commented yet, my computer was acting up and I wasn't able to leave comments. Truly irritating.<BR/><BR/>1. Drinking by yourself at three in the afternoon is not good. No matter what your reasons. I'm sorry, being brutally maternal here but I can't help it. I thought you got rid of the razors. And I'm concerned about the sick bucket. I understand about having an eating disorder because I have one myself (overeating but I have gained control over it. Not eating when I'm depressed, etc. Only eating when I'm hungry). I think the best thing that could happen for you is that someone does discover your secret, other than the internet.<BR/><BR/>2. Have you seen someone about this? The anxiety can be adjusted. I know that you said that you were leery of taking pills but wouldn't that be better than getting drunk or cutting? I've blown people off before and it never feels good to do it but sometimes it's hard to say no without coming up with something major because they just don't get it. I don't know why you feel so ugly either. You are not ugly. You are a wonderful person and stop hating yourself. Dammit.<BR/><BR/>It's good that you have revealed the secrets, even if it's just on the internet and you're hiding. <BR/><BR/>Okay, about the schizophrenic thing, self diagnosing is not the way to go. I was once diagnosed as being borderline schizophrenic which is not as horrible as it sounds. I was talking to clocks. And once overheard Japanese beetles say they were going to destroy all of America's plants in retaliation for Hiroshima. <BR/><BR/>Being a teenager is already a horrific time because you have all of the hormones running rampant through your system. You add a chemical imbalance to that and you end up completely not sure of what to do about anything and think that you are going mad. And yeah, you know, in a way you are. Because you get so worried about trying to prove that you're normal and there is nothing to worry about that you go crazy trying to hide it. It doesn't always work. The best thing that ever happened for me was the happy pills. It's not a bad idea to look into it. <BR/><BR/>Look, I worry. Okay? I can't help it. Some days you are good, some days are bad and I've been there. I tried to kill myself six times from the time I was 13 to the time I was 17-18. You're not alone. I am always an email away, when my stupid email works. And if you have MSN messenger, let me know. Not that I'll probably ever be online at the same time as you since you are six hours ahead but it's worth a shot, right?<BR/><BR/>Anyway, I hope things get better. Because I do worry.CarpeDMhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09066291714431230639noreply@blogger.com