Monday, November 14, 2005

Missing You


Hehe 200th Post! *Dances*

I've had a busy manic weekend - my cousin was stabbed, I saw the Remembrance Day fireworks, I've started a new story, commuted with a werewolf, and my Dad is on a cruise in the carribbean. But it all sounds so rudimentary. I miss Ria too much.

I haven't seen her for three weeks now and it feels like forever. I just want to hug her, mess up her hair, see her smile. I haven't missed anyone like this for a while, and it's distracting. But I guess it's a testimony to my shaky humanity that I can feel such love for a person. Most times I speak to her, I'm always thinking of the future - when we will be living somewhere new and we'll get sick of seeing each other all the time.It's the only time that I look forward to real life beyond university years. She's just lovely. If I lost her I'd be stuck somewhere incomphrehensibly unhospitable. (sorry to get so mushy) And the last time I saw her was in hospital, and she was all weak and scabby. Now, she's on to her second boyfriend, who's wary of the big bad lesbian taking Ria from her. I'm going to tease him mercifully whenever I meet him. He sounds like a wicked sense of humour.

And about werewolves, did you hear that there's a war plaguing the world? The war between witches, demons, werewolves and vampires? No?! Well, apparentely you should. This is what my friend has told me on Wednesday. She then went on to say her husband, who's also a demon, was killed the night before but herself and her witch friends brought him back to life. But he's lost most of his memory and they're awfully tired. I've been worried about her for a while, but I'm pretty sure that she has now, officially, lost her mind. I think it's all real in her head, but she talks like there's actual people involved. I'm going to her house on Wednesday and I don't know what to do. She's been a good friend so far, so I can't just abandon her.

My Dad has been gone for two days, and I've been drunk both days. I dunno why. I am in a crying mood, but getting drunk just makes the world so....dreamy. Safe in my alcohol fuelled cocoon. I'm still wondering how I'm going to survive but... OMG I have to tell you guys something -

The ball has started to roll! I have gotten two university offers!! One from Sussex (my top choice!) and from Sheffield!!! They're both in the top twenty universities in the country!!!!

And after the elation and the smiles and my as-yet celebrations, I'll be thinking to myself : -

Ack...what the fuck has the world come to?

2 comments:

Ria Q. Undead said...

Hey Dirty Birdie
Good God I'm lucky to have you. You sweetie!
I'll give you a ring tonight babe.
Love you more than I can express in words, and believe me, I miss you just as much if not more.
Ria x
PS I read the poem. It's proper good! TTYL

CarpeDM said...

Hey.

Congrats on the university. I am so proud of you!

Um, the friend you're going to see? Yeah, you might want to let someone in her family know about that.

Hope everything is going well, otherwise. Hi, Ria!