My half term?
Well, apart from the revising, on Weds is Ash's b'day and my hair day, the next day I have an interview with some big company to become an intern for one of the big museums next year even though I don't really want to. My life is Kanye West's When It All Falls Down.
[Chorus - 4x]
Oh when it all, it all falls down I'm telling you ohh, it all falls down
[Verse - Kanye West]
Man I promise, she's so self conscious
She has no idea what she's doing in college
That major that she majored in don't make no money
But she won't drop out, her parents will look at her funny
Now, tell me that ain't insecurrre
The concept of school seems so securrre
Sophmore three yearrrs aint picked a careerrr
She like fuck it, I'll just stay down herre and do hair
Cause that's enough money to buy her a few pairs of new Airs
Cause her baby daddy don't really care
She's so precious with the peer pressure
Couldn't afford a car so she named her daughter Alexus (a Lexus)
She had hair so long that it looked like weave
Then she cut it all off now she look like Eve
And she be dealing with some issues that you can't believe
Single black female addicted to retail and well
[Chorus - repeat 2x (w/ Kanye ad-libs)]
I've been planning my gap year, I'm already tired of universities and I just wanna write. When I'm in my exams I have this mad urge to just go 'fuck this' and ran out of the room for-freaking-ever. Or just to make a lot of noise. So why don't I do a business AS, finish my novel and go travelling for a few years? Expectations. I know what I can do when I'm sane. I could go to Oxford, write a good play, make plenty of good friends and just generally make a totally different life for myself than the one I don't mind leading all the time. But, Uni? I've been told I was going there since I was in year 4 and I got a level 6 in my reading, which is mighty high - like SAT level 6, it might have been but god thats my childhood and I'm never sure of anything.
And I guess, that's it, that's my problem right now. It's never good to be unsure about yourself and what your life may ever mean while you're doing bigass exams.
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hi. i found your blog a couple of days ago. i'm in second year at uni and believe me i wish i had done things differently. if you want to take a year out then do it while you can, get a placement somewhere, travel or even just work for a year, it'll give you a different perspective. but if you do go to uni straight from college then make sure you're on the right course and i'm saying this from experience, don't leave assessments and revision to the last minute because while it seems that no-one notices if you miss a class occasionally, they will definitely notice if you don't submit work! but don't freak out, you have plenty of time to decide what you want to do, just remember to enjoy what you're doing.
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